22 Debate

The Little Red Haired Girl

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22 Debate

“Instead of you and Brain arguing between yourselves why don’t you talk about what really matters” called Spirit.
“What do you mean? Noswad does matter to me and I need to find out why he left me here not waiting but trapped in this Pumphouse” Body spluttered.

” You mean why he lied to you consistently? who he betrayed you with? so that I may have a moments peace” said Brain.

” Oh shut up Brain, you never miss an opportunity to have a dig. We have no proof as I keep telling you, and until we do have facts I chose to believe he is a better person” said Body.

“And that’s what’s killing me” Soul lamented. “You have created a war between Heart and I, and now I am trapped in one of your ‘Bubbles’ as you described to the Little Red Haired Girl. And its killing me.”

“How so?” Brain inquired.

” Spirit’s intuition told me that we were in danger and we had let this go on long enough. You Body, and Heart, were ignoring the signs from not only Brain, but Spirit and I. Spirit’s intuition told me something was not right to ask you to wait for him yet again and I agreed. So I told him we would not wait for him any longer. It was not our path” sighed Soul.

“Oh it was you! I wondered where my words had come from that morning. A decision that certainly did not come from me or Brain” Body exclaimed.

“Nor would it” said Brain “after all intuition is not a fact. I don’t compute it.”

“Quite” sighed Soul “but it exists in Spirit nevertheless just as destiny does in me, as do many other things that you, Body and Brain both ignore, take for granted or don’t even know exist because you chose not to explore it.”

“Yeah right” said Brain sarcastically “Go on.”

“Do we have to” Body whined “I am in so much pain, so cold and so tired. I just want to go back to sleep. There is always tomorrow to debate this further.”

“Yeah yeah, put it off till tomorrow” Brain replied “as you do with most things you want to ignore and not think about.”

“For once I agree with Brain” sighed Soul “as I am fed up of being ignored and yet I guide you constantly.”

“How?” Body asked.

“Your intuition from Spirit for one, and my words, my answer to Noswad because we knew something was not right, you weren’t to wait for him, and we were correct. We took over (with higher authority I might add) and if you reflect on your life, your hard times, its Spirit with intuition and me with guidance that has got you out of the situations. Yet you don’t recognise it and worse still sometimes we can make you feel it in your Body and you still ignore it” Soul lamented.

“How?” Body asked again.

“The chills that run across your back for no apparent reason? Or the hairs on the back of your neck standing? Or feeling tremors in your stomach?….. shall i go on?”

“Never thought of it that way” admitted Brain “cause sometimes there has not been a change in temperature or hunger levels.”

And Soul sighed.

“But I didn’t know I had made that decision, that morning my voice came from nowhere.” Body was perplexed.

“Quite” sighed Soul “I gained authority to take over. Noswad was killing me.”

“But I didn’t want to refuse to wait” whined Body “and I am annoyed that you made that decision for me.”

“Well you certainly weren’t listening to me” Brain huffed ” after all, you knew he was a liar and…”
“Shut up Brain” Body and Soul said together.

“I loved him and I did not want to say Goodbye.” There was silence. Heart had spoken for the first time and it caused pain right across Bodies chest.

“And there is the war I was telling you about. Intuition from Spirit and I were telling you that this relationship was not good for you. Not your path” sighed Soul.

“And I was telling you the facts based on history” said Brain.

“But I deeply loved him. I could not imagine my life without him. I was so happy” cried Heart.

“We know” Body and Brain said together.

“But look at where it has got you Body. Got us. Why did you listen to Heart?” Brain questioned.

Heart answered “Because I loved him unconditionally, good and bad, and I hoped he would be the person I knew he could be. The person that was buried underneath and behind all the pain. I hoped he would become his true self. I could see it. I could feel it. He brought me joy for the first time since I was little, pure joy. I was prepared to wait again even after all these years.”

“Yeah the sex was good too I’ll admit.” said Body.

“It means nothing without involving me” cried Heart “Its just two bodies going through the motions.”

“It was more than any of the above” sighed Soul “he broke his contract and destiny, he drained my energy and Spirits, he took energy but never gave any back and made me feel worthless. He tore away self esteem, good character and projected onto us all how he felt about himself, and how he thought.”

“I know those thoughts” said Brain “they invaded me too.”

” How he believed people and the world to be. I started to go down paths and see through his eyes and I did not like what I saw with them” continued Soul “I became less than who I wanted to be. A less than Soul created just to make him feel better than me. To bolster his Ego.”

“But I loved him” cried Heart and even Body raised its eyes to the heavens.

“And that is why we are here, locked in this Pumphouse prison, trapped. Because of you Heart. And trapped with the unending questions as to why? Why? How could anybody do this and be so cruel. Just because you “loved him.” Brain was sarcastic and enjoyed it.

“WE are here because we needed to learn the lesson of what not to do. I have grown from it, and I will never be a less than Soul for anyone again. And now we are learning from it. Learning about using our intuition and discernment about people. Learning to not over give, over trust and overshadow ourselves. We are at war with ourselves, Heart, Body, Spirit and I, and Brain, and we need to come together as one and heal. Who and what has given us inspiration to keep going in this dark place? The enjoyment of a little creative drawing on a wall with a piece of broken glass. The imaginative uplifting stories we occupy ourselves with by daydreaming and night dreaming. The memories of bygone happier times. Bodies study in wonder of the night sky and Moon through the window. The conversations with the Little Red Haired Girl and Nana. Nana is guiding us in Spirit, talking to you all to help me lead you to the right path through this dark time.” Soul rested and sighed.

“Yes you are right” admitted Body “Nana is by my side as well as the other voice.”

“Yes” sighed Soul.

“Who is the other voice Soul?” Body asked.

“You will know for sure soon I hope” Soul replied.