215 A Child’s Heart
“What’s ‘turning in your grave’?” The Little Red Haired Girl asked Body as she put on her shoes and socks ready for the park.
“I’ve heard that expression before” Body answered “but never bothered to look it up.”
So Brain did on Google.
‘Turning in ones grave is an idiom meaning a dead person would be very angry, upset or shocked by something happening now” Brain read and continued.
To anger the dead: shows extreme dissapointment from a person who would hate the current action.
Protect a legacy: Often used when an institution, family member, or group betrays the original goals of its founder.
Pure exaggeration: Uses a funny, impossible image of a body moving underground to show how serious a mistake is.
The Little Red Haired Girl listened without fully understanding all the words but was astute enough to realize the conclusion of them. “Is that why Nana has been here?”
Body could not really answer so Spirit took the call “Yes, I believe it is.”
Brain kept quiet, it sounded so preposterous Spirit voicing this, yet had to to agree on what they had been experiencing. ‘The Nutshell’ had already been defined and no amount of trying to make it make sense as a whole worked out to a complete conclusion…yet.
“What about the others?” the child continued. “I don’t know their names other than Big Voice?”
“That is a difficult call” Spirit agreed “but we’ve been given ideas, dreams and messages that have been disconcerting and confusing, but on the whole we trust Big Voice. Big voice messages feel good and peaceful. We are just learning child and hopefully will get to know more about our ancestors.”
Soul just sighed.
“What do you want to say Soul?” Body questioned. “What are we expected to answer?”
Soul sighed again but was extremely reticent to speak for fear of what? What exactly was Soul fearful of?
“Are you sad?” the child questioned.
“Yes, and disappointed” Soul admitted.
“Who with?” the child continued refusing to let the subject go.
“Ourselves. I don’t detect a path we are worthy of. We have not been good enough.”
“Good enough for what?” the child persisted.
“No one is perfect” Body chipped in over her shoulder. “We have made bad decisions in the past, and asked the right questions in hindsight.”
“Yes, we have analysed our good and bad decisions and asked what we have learnt from them” Brain agreed.
“Confessed our sins” Soul corrected.
“OK yes I agree. We are continuing to learn from our past sinful actions, but as Body mentioned, no one is perfect, we all make some bad decisions at times.”
” I agree ” Spirit called ready to defend them all. “But the child asked who we have been speaking with?”
“And I am reluctant to answer” Soul sighed.
“Why?” Body requested. “Are we that sinful to feel unworthy of the answer?”
“Not exactly, we are making amends and trying to live a better life” Soul seemed tired of sighing.
“Does it feel too proud or boastful? Heart asked.
“Yes sort of, it feels too big a path. We do not have enough knowledge either.”
“Come now Soul, there is no such thing surely” Heart declared. “The bigger the path the more people can walk alongside us and help us too. The more landscape and knowledge is available to us.”
“Or to expose us” Spirit called.
Body felt unnerved by the lack of confidence.
“We have to take a leap of faith” Heart suggested.
“Who is Big Voice?” the child polarised the attention back to the original question. “Or the others? Who are they?”
Soul sighed under the pressure and Body felt alienated.
Spirit took up the answer. “Our Holy ancestors. They see what has been done behind our back and it is so bad, they have been disturbed and are trying to help us restore the balance. To make things fair and resolved. I believe some of them are quite feisty like a warrior. I feel them and it makes me want to call out the names of our betrayers.”
“Can’t until we get the proof and it is on its way I feel sure” Brain assessed. “But when we have, the courts will decide what is fair.”
“So what is the problem Soul?” Heart asked again. “Why will you not answer the child?”
“Big Voice is God, his Son and the Holy Spirit speaking with us and I sense his dissapointment not only in the people around us but in ourselves too. We must call it as it is and this in itself will categorise us and possibly alienate others from us as well. A narrower path. People have very specific and sometimes inflexible views on religion”
“Does it not say in the Bible somewhere that everyone has that privilage, to speak with God and Jesus whatever their background, wherever they come from. They just have to ask?”
“It’s a total revelation to me” Brain agreed “and some would say arrogant to assume as such. I mean, why us?”
“Hence my reticence. But I believe he speaks with lots of people if they open up and ask.”
“It also makes us a target” Spirit called.
“Whatever” Body concluded. “We can take back control over our lives. We can believe what we wish as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else. As long as we are kinder to people.”
“We can learn our lessons” the child agreed “Miss said it is always good to learn and if you don’t know, to put your hand up and ask questions.”
“We can take back our energy” called Spirit “no one has the right to take ours” as Body acknowledged and nodded in agreement about the overwhelming exhaustion she had however much she rested, and Heart confirmed the projected feelings that were not of Body’s or their own nature.
“They are not allowed to steal from us either in money, property or our work” Brain agreed.
“We can and have already asked the heavens to intervene on our behalf. We have laid out problems before Big Voice and he has and is working behind the scenes. We have been told to trust Big Voice and now we must learn to trust ourselves. Every part of us. We have made our own confessions. We will be no one else’s scapegoat, black sheep or sacrifice anymore and people seem to think that if you try to be kind or understanding that you are weak and can be taken advantage of. The sacrifice was already made by Jesus. Big Voice, God, just needs our true intentions and kindness. He needs our full and willing heart” Heart cried as Body felt a surge of energy to Spirits joy.
“So it’s God and Jesus?” the child confirmed.
“As far as we can tell” Body answered.
“And the Holy Spirit” Spirit called. “The Holy Spirit, and our Holy ancestors, will find all manner of ways to tell us the truth that lies hidden. Whoever betrayed us has done something so bad it goes against all spiritual law.”
‘”And most definitely against the 10 commandments. Otherwise God would not have intervened” Soul sighed.
“How many of them ‘voices’ are there? Do some work with Big Voice?” the child asked ever curious as one should be.
“We sense so” Spirit was unsure.
“Some might say the voices are our own conscience speaking. Or if you like the good and the bad wolf that live on each shoulder.”
“Don’t be daft” the child announced. “Everybody knows they can’t live on your shoulder. They like forests.”
“I mean pretend ones child. One wolf that tempts you into bad things on one shoulder and another one that tells you the correct thing to do on the other” Brain tried to explain. “It’s a way of saying there is often a choice between good or bad, and if I may suggest a third option lies in between.”
“Wait for it ” Spirit mocked and guessed what was coming.
“To use ones Brain and think things through before acting.”
“I knew it” Spirit laughed “assuming one has facts and that they are actually tangible.”
“Then which voice do we hear? Which voice is the loudest? Which wolf gets seen by Miss?” The child was getting annoyed.
“Whichever wolf you feed” Brain suggested.
“What happens to your theory then when it’s a toss up between the devil you know and the devil you don’t?” Spirit enjoyed wrapping Brain up in mockery. “What happens between less bad and bad? Less good and good? What it there are two completely different species on each shoulder. Say a devil and a lamb? A wolf and a Fish? How can you compare and decide between the two then?” Spirit laughed it’s way to the ceiling. “More importantly, things like between the betrayal of a lover and the betrayal of family members? What do you decide? Who’s side are you on?”
“Shut up both of you” the child stamped her foot.
“I feel sorry for them” Heart cried “they must be feeing awful even if they made the decision to do it. To betray us or anyone. We’ve done it in the past and could not live with ourselves till we spoke the truth and moved away from the people we betrayed, and it feels horrible like a living hell.”
“Possibly the literal definition, to anyone that has a Soul that is” Spirit called it out.
“Leave me out” sighed Soul
“But I don’t wish that on anyone” Heart continued. “Why don’t they just come clean and tell the truth. They would feel so much better.”
“Would we listen to them?” Body asked.
“We should. Just as God listened to us. We should keep our Heart open” Soul sighed.
“There is no point. We know they will just continue to lie to us. We have already asked the questions. They are frightened of being judged by others, or possibly even going to jail depending on how far they took it” Brain was defeated.
“Ultimately they cannot continue to lie to us anymore which is why we have been told to leave them alone and withdraw our contact. Leave me out as I said earlier. They will have to work this out for themselves as we cannot help them. Ultimately, the only ‘person’ entitled to call judgement is God, and if necessary he will make the punishment fit either in this lifetime on this earth school or in the next. Through the legal justice system, or repentance and forgiveness by and to the person who was betrayed. Or by repeating the same lesson all over again through years of trouble thus realising finally, their mistakes and that no good comes from them. To purposefully harm another.”
“This school is tough. This lesson is hard” the Little Red Haired Girl acknowledged.
“Just give your Heart to me child and I will put the pieces back together again. It’s a good lesson for you to learn as well as others. It is the last time these people will ever be able to harm you, or the others they have hurt, ever again. This is my promise” God stated.
“Is that a pinkie promise?” the child looked worried. So many promises had been broken before. Her own as well as those made by others.
“Yes child, whatever you want to name it. A promise is a promise, Pinkie or otherwise, and I keep my promises.”
“What do I call you? Are you God or Big Voice? Are you Jesus? Miss said I was to remember my manners.”
“The fact that you heard me is all that matters, and that you have a willingness to listen and learn the lessons, your Heart is good and your Spirit true. The Holy Spirit lives in all of you if one listens to it. Your path for Soul will unfold as it is meant to be.” It was God’s turn to sigh, so much was given to people through his Son and yet it took a child’s heart to believe, accept and understand.
© 2026 Jennifer Harris. Free And Alive 555
