83 Suzy

The Little Red Haired Girl

83 Suzy

“That was a lovely song. Thank you for singing it. This Pumphouse prison does not feel as gloomy anymore.”

“That’s what Daddy says. He says it makes you feel better. He plays music loud and Mummy tells him off coz of next door.”

“It’s good to be considerate of others” called Spirit.
“What does that mean? The big word?”

“Considerate? It means to be careful of how others may feel. Your next door people may not like loud music.”
“Like Suzy. she was not cons… cons… careful.”

“Who’s Suzy?” called Spirit.
“One of my dolls. She’s naughty and goes missing and I have to find her. She’s not very careful at all.”
“Why? Where does she go?”

“She goes to visit poorly children who don’t have dolls. She never lets me go with her. It’s to make them feel better.”
“Well I disagree with you then for that is very considerate of her and very kind.”
“Cept sometimes I can’t find her and it makes me cross.”
“Understandable” Spirit agreed.

“One time I looked for her for ages and I was really hot and fizzy. I looked everywhere. In the bed, in the toybox. I went downstairs and looked behind the green sofa. I even went outside to see if she was sat in the daisy’s. It was dark but I couldn’t find her. I went to next doors garden to see if Allison had took her into her garden but there was no answer at the green door.”

“So what did you do?”
“I went back to the bedroom and started to look again then I heard her in the big wardrobe.”
“Oh Good”
“Yes I got in the wardrobe with her and we was talking for ages. Mummy keeps some blankets in there so it was really cosy.”

“And what did you talk about?”
“She told me about the beds.”
“What beds?”
“Rows of beds with poorly children that have no dolls. That’s where she went and it didn’t matter if they borrowed her.”
“No it wouldn’t matter at all” called Spirit “Especially if they were poorly.”

“We went to sleep then.”
“In the wardrobe?”
“Yes and there was lots of shouting. Mummy was very cross coz I wasn’t in my bed and they had all been looking for me.”

The child was starting to look a little upset so Spirit deciding to question no more. “Why don’t you snuggle up with Body and get some sleep?”
“Yes. I can pretend Suzy is with me” and so she did just that. Spooned herself against Body and placed Body’s arms around her.

Spirit watched the child fall asleep almost instantly and was in deep calling when Brain interrupted. “I vaguely remember that incident” Brain stated. “She wasn’t in her bed in the morning and got told off by Mum. Something to do with sleepwalking and how the backdoor was unlocked and been left wide open overnight. Although it’s very hazy.”

“Yes” called Spirit “and I am not sure about this memory of Mrs G they went to visit. It doesn’t feel like a safe memory the child felt uneasy and distracted herself by playing with the cats. The cards? Tarot maybe? and why was eldest sister there? Why would they drive such a long way to see this woman? Intuitively I feel something odd, I feel maybe a plan or an intention that I cannot call. But the child certainly remembers it. And the cryptic things she said to such a small child like ‘not to get fat’ or that ‘there would always be someone in the way’ and that she would ‘always be one of three’. These would not make sense to a child.”

“Well it obviously made sense to Mother and Sister. They paid money over.”

“A very good point Brain and maybe was their intention for a future plan, coz it certainly would not have made sense to the child at that point in time.”

Spirit clouded and darkened.

Brain was lost in thought struggling to catch elusive snippet’s of memory like ribbons hung on random trees in a forest.

“Be still, be silent. All truth will be revealed. What is done in the dark will come into the light” said Big voice.