174 Ready or Not

Onward Journey

174 Ready or Not

“I don’t know what I want to write about anymore?” Body stated.
“We could crayon instead and make a pretend office” the Little Red Haired Girl suggested.
“There is plenty of filing to do anyway” Body complained. “We have paperwork all over the place since we moved. There is no need to pretend to be in a office, we can just get on with it.”
“What for?” the child asked “we know where to find stuff if we need it.”
“I know, but I feel an urge to get prepared.”
“For what?” the child asked.

It took a moment for Body to assess. It was a good question and she couldn’t answer it. Why did she get this placement/feeling? “I don’t know” she admitted.
“Oh stop putting it off” Brain chastised. “It needs to be done anyway. Since we moved everything is in a mess and it takes twice as long to find anything so the paperwork is not effective as it is.”
“Oh don’t make the job sound so unappealing” complained Body “I will get around to it when I have the energy.”
“Do it now” urged Spirit “we will need it all at a future date.”
“How can you possibly know that?” mocked Brain.
“We do” the child answered as she sat on the kitchen floor and put the cut out cardboard files of ‘paperwork’ in the slots on the dish rack that had just been washed and left to dry in the patch of sun.

“Ok” Body stated “let’s do it properly then and find some good strong file box’s that will travel well.”
“Travel?” questioned Brain.
“Yeah, don’t know why I said that” admitted Body, but they set to work.

As they sorted through the old and even older paperwork they had kept, Heart reflected on each scenario the paperwork provided in that snapshot of time, it seemed like a life time ago, and Body felt estranged from it all. Had she really done that? Had she really overcome that impossible placement? and Brain went through a meltdown! A bit like Heart had done when looking through the old photographs.
“Why does this bother you Brain?” Heart enquired gently.

“It’s the injustice!” Brain remembered through the paperwork at each scenario in time. “How come we alway’s lost financially? How come we never got back what we invested in either time or money? How come we were alway’s on the losing side?”
“Pack it up Brain” Body sighed “It is what it is. We did the best we could in any of these situations and placement. It is past and not relevant anymore.”
“I know” Brain admitted “but there are so many similarities within each situation it’s as if it was pre-planned by another.”
“It probably was” Spirit agreed “but we cannot do anything about it now. The time has gone and with hindsight our own actions contributed to it too.”
“I accept that” Brain agreed “but it’s the injustice and the controlling element we believe from someone else that irks me.”
“Is that you Brain agreeing with my intuition?” called Spirit.
“With the benefit of hindsight, yes.”

Wow, that was an admittance from Brain that took them all surprise and the disbelief that had been overcome as a result felt like a huge relief.

“Who would have done this?” Body asked. “Who would have wanted to control our placement that much? Throughout our entire lives?”

“The man” the child answered “The man that wasn’t there.”

“Who wasn’t there child?” cried Heart.

“Yesterday upon the stair
I met a man who wasn’t there
He wasn’t there again today
I wish that man would go away.”

“Who is it?” Heart cried and the child just shrugged her shoulders. “It doesn’t matter anymore, coz he’s been there all our life.”

Spirit tried it’s best to ‘see’ this man but could not. “We are not meant to see him yet but we will. That’s why it’s time to put our files in order, our photos in order, our life in order so we are ready.”
“Does that mean we will meet him properly soon?” the child asked.
“I believe it does” sighed Soul.

“Will we live in a nice house with a blue staircase and yellow Roses in the hallway? Can we have two fluffy dogs and a good husband? and a gardener so Body doesn’t get so tired digging? and a helper for all these papers? and can I slide down the bannister without being told off?”
“Breathe” Brain told the child.

“If we can dream it it we can have it” called Spirit.
“If it’s on our path, our destination, we will” sighed Soul.
“Good coz I am fed up of sitting on the stairs watching everyone else going up or down them. I want to get to where we are going” the child looked up at Body. “You can do it.”

“Who say’s?” spluttered Body “Why is it my responsibility?”
“It’s ours” sighed Soul “We have to make it happen.”
“How?” asked Brain logical as ever. “We have done all we can.”

“We place our trust in God, the most high, the heavens, our Holy ancestors. They will guide us. It is up to all of us.”
“Good” the child answered “It’s draughty and cold on the stairs. Up or down I want to go there and reach the place.”
“It’s a gamble” voiced Brain “we might not like what happens in either direction.”
“Enough” sighed Soul “believe in the child’s picture. We deserve some happiness.”

“It’s coming” Big voice announced “Get ready.”